OH 2009... haha i cannot believe I remembered livejournal! I was thinking of deleting it but... no... it will be comic relief when I am old, and lame and have nothing to do. anyway... I got this last night while Sholey got his first tattoo!
My friend at work took the pic... you can see my mug! it has a pig on it. it also says oink.
Greg gets his next tattoo on Thursday. I'm excited for him!
2009 is ok so far. Work is awesome. love it. there have been many redundancies. we are really suffering... as are all companies in this current economic state. I hope it gets better!
Well today as come up so slyly. I leave for EUROPE today. This afternoon, and i'm not excited, at all, nor am I happy. But then again, i'm not sad. I'm scared of leaving gregory. Well scared is the wrong word, i don't know the right word, it's just a feeling that I hate feeling, knowing that I am leaving him for 4 months, and it is my choice. I feel like the biggest asshole of a girlfriend in the world -selfish, and disrespectful, but I know that this will be better for both of us, We are each going to grow as individuals and come together again and know that we are going to spend FOREVER TOGETHER, and I'm confident that will happen. I trust him completely, and their is no question in that trust - I am just going to miss the boy so fucking much, and i know it will make sad, and sick... but I'm ready to go through it all to see the world, and to learn lessons, and to meet amazing people. I love him 100000000000000000000000 x infinity more than he thinks he knows.
apart from gregory being the main factor in my 'not wanting to go' state - there's my grandma - she's suddenly become sick again. she's been sick a few times in the last few months... dad's taking her to the hospital after I fly out.... On the upside, my friends are the most beautiful people in the world. They have come to all my little gayasss farewells, and have made me cry so many times... not in a bad way though... they have given me heaps of support and have been reassuring me that I'm doing 'the right thing' in terms of following my dreams... and standing alone, without gregory for a while.
anyway, i'm an emotional wreck. I absolutely adore australia, and our people, and my family, and my friends, and most of all my partner in crime, and I am going to homesick by tomorrow. I shall survive it though.
hello livejournal. haven't seen you in a while. I've been busy, well not really,... i just sorta forgot about this thing. Anyway, I am here to update, and update I shall... I turned 21 on Monday. It was great... wasn't expecting anything. I spent my daY at home doing my assignment that was due on Tuesday, and that I had only started the eve of my birthday; mind you, it was worth 60%. Two of the girls stopped by with ice cream cake, and lots of love... and I had the normal dinner with my Gregory, and his mama and papa gave me a big yummy cake, and a present, and lots of love! They makes me feel looooved!
Everyone is shocked because Greg didn't get me anything. But I don't know why. I asked him not too (besides, he has given me enough). I'd rather him act smart with the money, instead of spending $100's of dollars on a stupid birthday. Some people don't see logic. Greg's money is my money, and my money is his money... it wouldn't make a difference if he bought me anything. It's like buying my own present! hehe...
Anyway.. in other news. I'm off to Germany for 5months. On exchange! Leave here the 4th of September, and return around March sometime. I'm looking forward to it, sorta. The most difficult thing will be the fact that I won't be able to touch, or smell Greg. BUT, I know it will be a learning experience, and I will no doubt meet lots of awesome characters! I'm going to be missing heaps of stuff though: A wedding, and a Birth. meh.. win some, lose some! Perhaps someone can take a laptop to the wedding, and I can be there via skype!
The dumbest question some of my friends have asked me: "whats going to happen with Gregory?"
Isn't that dumb? YES IT IS. Nothing is going to happen with Greg. Just because your leaving a country, it doesn't mean you fall out of love. He is my everything, and I will miss him dearly! but we will are as good as married! <3
In other news, it's my birthday shin-dig on saturday. 145people so far. it's gonna go OFF!!!!! Weeeheee!!!!! Shall definitely update on that later...
But for now, I shall leave you with my shitty little movie thing I made for my uni assigment. PS. it was one of the best in the class (we have idiots in our class.. I don't know how they can class themselves as designers)
we said farewell to my family treasure last night. it was a perfect goodbye. we buried him around 9pm; lit 5 candles, and they stayed burning till bout 2am, this morning. all of them.
From : kurupt Young Gotti <kurupt_03@hotmail.com> Sent : Sunday, 10 December 2006 10:37:11 AM To : purfukt@hotmail.com Subject : love u babe *bah*
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A girl asked a boy if she was pretty. He said no. She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever. He said no. She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away. He again said no. She had heard too much. She needed to leave. As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay, he said, "You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."
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*thoughts*
i've heard that lil poem lots of times, but he sent it to me at the most random, unexpected moment. oh, gregory.
someone makes me thing of something that i have thought about before, but have forgotten. never had the courage to ask this question before. did today. wasn't answered.
[ when i think i'm doing great, going strong, somethings always fucks me over, breaks me down ]
I am over believing that i am a smart, talented researcher and designer. ARGHH!! After three days of solid research, meetings with teachers and re-drafts for my honours proposal, I got fed up and changed the topic dramatically, wrote it in half an hour and am submitting it for my application. *sigh*
HAHAHA... GERRY HARVEY is on the radio talking about how finance is BAD, and HE'S THE ONE WHO'S ADVERTISING TO EVERYONG SAYING BUY MY STUFF ON FINANCE!!! BWHAHAHAHA
x. went to arthouse - was fun - house music- haven't danced to that in a WHILE x. fell asleep with greg last night. was great. he smiles when he sleeps next to me x. worked ALL THREE days this weekend. I'm rich rich rich. x. work was busy as fuck x. greg says "ssshh" like "ccchhh"... bwhahahaha... it's funny x. i'm takin one of the girls from work shoppin 4 her formal. yr 10 - shes like a little me, but leb. x. i am gonna start going gym again tommoro. haven't been in like 2 weeks. x. the new biggest loser started today. i was so excited. x. one of the lady's at work said i lost weight, that was GREAT to hear, but i kno it's just hidden. and has been packin on the last 2 weeks. x. so many assignments. so little time. HONOURS PREP.. ARGHHH.. FREAKING...
sometimes i get pretty frustrated at gregory. he's got these standards that change in every situation... like when we're planning on going out - SOMETIMES he requires notice (mostly when it's MY FRIENDS EVENTS), and sometimes he decides ON THE night if we're actually goin somewhere or not. hmmm.. yeh.. it annoys me, cos i'll get pysch'd up to go out, and think about what i'm wearing and BLAH BLAH BLAH.. and we end up not going. its amazing how sometimes i'm the biggest sook in the world... but this is an ISSUE for me!!
it's poo.
yeah.. thats all i can think of for now.
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he's beautiful, and i love watching him sleep, but i hate when he sleeps for hours and hours, and doesn't wake up!! cute kid, that gregory. i bought him business shirts today!! a bit expensive, but it's OKAY.. he needs to look professionl! He wore a black shirt to work yesturday, and WHOOO HUSBAND LOOKED HOT!! SO, i went and bought him a SEXIER black shirt, and a nice sky blue one too... they are very greg-like. it's great. i love shopping for him.
anyway.. goodnight.
ps. imani and khadafi, are sleeping next to cadbury tonight. how cute...
PPS. OHH FUCK I FORGOT TO SAY!!! the chinese place we always buy food from PAINTED OVER THEIR WALLPAPER!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. it was most awesome vintage wallpaper EVER, and the stupid azn people PAINTED OVER IT. i was heartbroken.
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