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Thu, 12 Feb 2009 11:26:05 GMT

OH 2009... haha i cannot believe I remembered livejournal!
I was thinking of deleting it but... no... it will be comic relief when I am old, and lame and have nothing to do.
anyway... I got this last night while Sholey got his first tattoo!

My friend at work took the pic... you can see my mug!
it has a pig on it.
it also says oink.

Greg gets his next tattoo on Thursday. I'm excited for him!

2009 is ok so far.
Work is awesome.
love it.
there have been many redundancies.
we are really suffering... as are all companies in this current economic state.
I hope it gets better!

D-DAY.

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 21:51:37 GMT

Well today as come up so slyly. I leave for EUROPE today. This afternoon, and i'm not excited, at all, nor am I happy. But then again, i'm not sad. I'm scared of leaving gregory. Well scared is the wrong word, i don't know the right word, it's just a feeling that I hate feeling, knowing that I am leaving him for 4 months, and it is my choice. I feel like the biggest asshole of a girlfriend in the world -selfish, and disrespectful, but I know that this will be better for both of us, We are each going to grow as individuals and come together again and know that we are going to spend FOREVER TOGETHER, and I'm confident that will happen.
I trust him completely, and their is no question in that trust - I am just going to miss the boy so fucking much, and i know it will make sad, and sick... but I'm ready to go through it all to see the world, and to learn lessons, and to meet amazing people. I love him 100000000000000000000000 x infinity more than he thinks he knows.

apart from gregory being the main factor in my 'not wanting to go' state - there's my grandma - she's suddenly become sick again. she's been sick a few times in the last few months... dad's taking her to the hospital after I fly out....
On the upside, my friends are the most beautiful people in the world. They have come to all my little gayasss farewells, and have made me cry so many times... not in a bad way though... they have given me heaps of support and have been reassuring me that I'm doing 'the right thing' in terms of following my dreams... and standing alone, without gregory for a while.

anyway, i'm an emotional wreck. I absolutely adore australia, and our people, and my family, and my friends, and most of all my partner in crime, and I am going to homesick by tomorrow. I shall survive it though.

I will see the world, and live for an adventure.

that is all for now.

steph.

ps. i love you gregory.

it's been a while...

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 00:50:40 GMT

hello livejournal. haven't seen you in a while.
I've been busy, well not really,... i just sorta forgot about this thing. Anyway, I am here to update, and update I shall...
I turned 21 on Monday. It was great... wasn't expecting anything. I spent my daY at home doing my assignment that was due on Tuesday, and that I had only started the eve of my birthday; mind you, it was worth 60%. Two of the girls stopped by with ice cream cake, and lots of love... and I had the normal dinner with my Gregory, and his mama and papa gave me a big yummy cake, and a present, and lots of love! They makes me feel looooved!

Everyone is shocked because Greg didn't get me anything. But I don't know why. I asked him not too (besides, he has given me enough). I'd rather him act smart with the money, instead of spending $100's of dollars on a stupid birthday. Some people don't see logic. Greg's money is my money, and my money is his money... it wouldn't make a difference if he bought me anything. It's like buying my own present! hehe...

Anyway.. in other news. I'm off to Germany for 5months. On exchange! Leave here the 4th of September, and return around March sometime. I'm looking forward to it, sorta. The most difficult thing will be the fact that I won't be able to touch, or smell Greg. BUT, I know it will be a learning experience, and I will no doubt meet lots of awesome characters! I'm going to be missing heaps of stuff though: A wedding, and a Birth. meh.. win some, lose some! Perhaps someone can take a laptop to the wedding, and I can be there via skype!

The dumbest question some of my friends have asked me: "whats going to happen with Gregory?"

Isn't that dumb? YES IT IS. Nothing is going to happen with Greg. Just because your leaving a country, it doesn't mean you fall out of love. He is my everything, and I will miss him dearly! but we will are as good as married! <3

In other news, it's my birthday shin-dig on saturday. 145people so far. it's gonna go OFF!!!!! Weeeheee!!!!!
Shall definitely update on that later...

But for now, I shall leave you with my shitty little movie thing I made for my uni assigment.
PS. it was one of the best in the class (we have idiots in our class.. I don't know how they can class themselves as designers)

edit: or maybe not... the bitch wwon't upload!

Peace Out lovers.

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 22:27:18 GMT

i forgot to report... i made the UWS Dean's List for 2006.
yay go me!! go me indeed!

the perfect goodbye.

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 06:24:33 GMT

R.I.P Shaggy B. Bernadus.

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we said farewell to my family treasure last night.
it was a perfect goodbye.
we buried him around 9pm; lit 5 candles, and they stayed burning till bout 2am, this morning.
all of them.

love you, bubba!

<3

excitement...

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 00:46:13 GMT

in a few hours... this baby will be MINE.

ARE YOU EXCITED FOR ME??

i've been waiting years, for today!! weehee!!!!!!!!

(now, i need programs)

i love my love.. so muuuuch. sigh

Sun, 10 Dec 2006 10:21:02 GMT

From : kurupt Young Gotti <kurupt_03@hotmail.com>
Sent : Sunday, 10 December 2006 10:37:11 AM
To : purfukt@hotmail.com
Subject : love u babe *bah*

| | | Inbox

A girl asked a boy if she was pretty.
He said no.
She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever.
He said no.
She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away.
He again said no.
She had heard too much.
She needed to leave.
As she walked away, he grabbed her arm and told her to stay, he said,
"You're not pretty, you're beautiful. I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."

___________________________________________

*thoughts*

i've heard that lil poem lots of times, but he sent it to me at the most random, unexpected moment. oh, gregory.

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 06:43:21 GMT

it's mothers birthday today.
i don't give a fuck.

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 09:33:26 GMT

someone makes me thing of something that i have thought about before, but have forgotten.
never had the courage to ask this question before.
did today.
wasn't answered.

[ when i think i'm doing great, going strong, somethings always fucks me over, breaks me down ]

thats it.

For Sablet to smile!!

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 21:40:40 GMT

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 08:24:13 GMT

I am over believing that i am a smart, talented researcher and designer.
ARGHH!!
After three days of solid research, meetings with teachers and re-drafts for my honours proposal, I got fed up and changed the topic dramatically, wrote it in half an hour and am submitting it for my application.
*sigh*

Mon, 16 Oct 2006 00:37:52 GMT

HAHAHA... GERRY HARVEY is on the radio talking about how finance is BAD, and HE'S THE ONE WHO'S ADVERTISING TO EVERYONG SAYING BUY MY STUFF ON FINANCE!!!
BWHAHAHAHA

and i set up all their finance...

oh, lame

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 22:06:46 GMT

i'm so over life, in general.

*rips out hair*

whatever,

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 22:51:01 GMT

My lovely girl Ebony made this beautiful peice for Gregory and I.
I don't look very good.. but it's SWEEET!!!

the weekend

Mon, 02 Oct 2006 13:11:39 GMT

x. went to arthouse - was fun - house music- haven't danced to that in a WHILE
x. fell asleep with greg last night. was great. he smiles when he sleeps next to me
x. worked ALL THREE days this weekend. I'm rich rich rich.
x. work was busy as fuck
x. greg says "ssshh" like "ccchhh"... bwhahahaha... it's funny
x. i'm takin one of the girls from work shoppin 4 her formal. yr 10 - shes like a little me, but leb.
x. i am gonna start going gym again tommoro. haven't been in like 2 weeks.
x. the new biggest loser started today. i was so excited.
x. one of the lady's at work said i lost weight, that was GREAT to hear, but i kno it's just hidden. and has been packin on the last 2 weeks.
x. so many assignments. so little time. HONOURS PREP.. ARGHHH.. FREAKING...

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 13:00:47 GMT

sometimes i get pretty frustrated at gregory.
he's got these standards that change in every situation... like when we're planning on going out - SOMETIMES he requires notice (mostly when it's MY FRIENDS EVENTS), and sometimes he decides ON THE night if we're actually goin somewhere or not. hmmm.. yeh.. it annoys me, cos i'll get pysch'd up to go out, and think about what i'm wearing and BLAH BLAH BLAH.. and we end up not going. its amazing how sometimes i'm the biggest sook in the world... but this is an ISSUE for me!!

it's poo.

yeah.. thats all i can think of for now.

[edit : random ramblings]

he's beautiful, and i love watching him sleep, but i hate when he sleeps for hours and hours, and doesn't wake up!! cute kid, that gregory. i bought him business shirts today!! a bit expensive, but it's OKAY.. he needs to look professionl! He wore a black shirt to work yesturday, and WHOOO HUSBAND LOOKED HOT!! SO, i went and bought him a SEXIER black shirt, and a nice sky blue one too... they are very greg-like. it's great. i love shopping for him.

anyway.. goodnight.

ps. imani and khadafi, are sleeping next to cadbury tonight. how cute...

PPS. OHH FUCK I FORGOT TO SAY!!! the chinese place we always buy food from PAINTED OVER THEIR WALLPAPER!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. it was most awesome vintage wallpaper EVER, and the stupid azn people PAINTED OVER IT. i was heartbroken.

that is all.

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 12:19:00 GMT

i hate to see/hear my girls hurting...

=(

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 07:11:26 GMT

khadafi got a girlfriend!!!
her name is IMANI!!

Gregory bought her for me last week.. and we named her today.

ain't she cute?

Khadafi is in need of a new eye...

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 23:01:00 GMT

oh, yeah... and now i'M left injured
i have this massive lump on my head.
my knuckles are lumpy, and have cuts on them.
AND I'M TIRED!!!

i need anger management! haha..
must.stop.hitting.head.against.brick.wall.when.upset.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 13:25:41 GMT

can't sleep.

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 11:59:03 GMT

It's alright / to tell me / what you think / about me
I won't try / to argue / or hold it / against you
I know that / you're leaving / you must have / your reasons
The season / is calling / your pictures / are falling down
And it's happened once again / I'll turn to a friend / Someone that understands
Sees through the master plan
But everybody's gone / And I've been here for too long
To face this on my own / Well I guess this is growing up
Tidal waves they rip right through me / Tears from eyes worn cold and sad / Pick me up now, I need you so bad

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 10:54:39 GMT

so i'm young, stupid, married and WANT TO HAVE FUN!!!
i want to see the world.
LIKE EVERYONE ELSE!

ARGH.

so... lots of my friends are goin travelling.
hong kong, america, borneo, itlay, austria, sth america, thailand, neW zealand.. EVERYWHERE... and where am i? HERE. AUSTRALIA... WHERE I'VE BEEN LOCKED UP FOR THE PAST 12YEARS.. argh... STUDYING COMES FIRST... FINISH YOU STUDIES... FUCK

NO.

i want to travel. i want to travel with friends - with gregory. i want to see the world on my own... not as a child sitting next to my father as we fly over the indian ocean. NO. i want be next to gregory! *STOMPS FOOT*

he says hes not stopping me... fuck... ofcourse he is. it's not like i've been saving my earnings... NO. it all goes to him. SO, if i wanted to go i need to get it out of HIS BANK ACCOUNT. It's not like i'd be struggling to pay for it myself... it's just that.. all MY money is in FATHER'S account!!

i AM going to SOUTH AFRICA with GREGORY next year
I AM

maybe if i wish hard enough it'll come true???

I WANT TO GO TO SOUTH AFRICA!! FUCK!!!

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 04:15:41 GMT

TEN SOMETHINGS.
1. are you missing someone right now?: yes. my oreo boy.
2. are you happy: yes.
3. are you talking to anyone right now?: yes yes yes... two very cool kids.
4. are you bored: i am indeed.
5. are you german: yes. schuubert.
6. are you irish: no. ass.
7. are you french: yes, i'm a french maid at times *wink* har har har
8. are you Italian: pfft stupid
9. are your parents still married: nope, thank goooood
10. do you like someone right now: nope, but i do love someone

TEN FAVORITES.
1. store: LOLLISHOP on main street!
2. flower: black rose
3. color/s: red black and white.
4. sport: soccer
5. mall: mmmmm...pitt street?
6. music: old skool shit
7. food: satay chicken lunch box special !! doonside chinese =)
8. season: WINTER.
9. animal: lion.
10. state: NSW

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: BLACKTOWN... EEEYAAAH!
2. hair color: black
3. age: 20
4. hair style: messy but hot...
5. eye color: dark dark brown
6. best feature: lips + eyes
7. mood: excited!
8. skin color: orange? or light chocolate
9. available?: LOSER.
10. lefty/righty: right.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love?: yes.
2. do you believe in love: i do now.
3. why did your last relationship fail: what relationship?
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: ofcourse.. cos i'm so hot right now
6. have you ever fallen for one of your CLOSE friends: no, thats WRONG
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: heeheee
8. are you afraid of commitment: i was, but i'm READY now. hint hint. hehe
9. has someone ever kissed your hand: awwww yesh
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: yes. gregory.

TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT.
1. love or trust: trust
2. hard liquor or beer: hard liquor
3. night or day: night
4. one night stands or relationships: relationships
5. television or internet: internet
6. pepsi or coke: coke
7. wild night out or romantic night in: wild night babbbyyy
9. phone or in person: person!!
10. msn or myspace: msn fa' shizzy..

TEN HAVE Y0U EVER.
1. have you ever been caught sneaking out?: nope. i'm good.
2. have you ever skinny dipped: =)
3. have you ever done something you regret: yes.
4. have you ever bungee jumped: NO =(
5. have you ever been on a house boat: umm no.
6. have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker: YES!! i'm great.
7. have you ever wanted someone so badly it hurt?: no.
8. have you ever wished upon a star?: yes, we saw a shooting star oncce too!!
9. have you ever danced in the rain?: yes !!
10. have you ever had a hang over?: not really.

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 23:12:49 GMT

it would be WRONG if i didn't update on the weekend, WRONG.. so shall do it quickly in points

+ friDAY got to catch up with my lovely el retard0, and do a test photo shoot. the above picture is one that i was happy with... the REAL shoot is on tuesday.. make up artists and ALL.

+ friday NIGHT, got to catch up with the bungholio crew- chilled at annehs, then went to renee's 21st birthday party... got to see my love, and sarah0. headed into the city for Mark's 21st Birthday. Basically the night was shit, but parts of it were good. the goods parts: world tower, seeing gregory, seeing bungholio + catchin up on gossip, dancing like trees, and seeing the magic man at the club!!

+ saturDAY i worked.. it was gay.

+ saturday NIGHT was sholans 21st birthday event - twas goooood it consisted of:

- minus 5 ice bar..shall post picture later...awesome awesome awesome...

- getting rejected from the club sholan had organised a guest list for, becuase onf the boys had a ratty...

- getting into the regular club we go to. BIG FIGHT THERE.... gtg go.. greg coming.. shall continue this soon... oh btw, gregory got arrested!! wheeheehehehehe

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 23:16:05 GMT

so.. they tried THREE TIMES to get blood from me. finally it worked.
the second time she poked it in and was moving it around all crazy like.. and i started to cry... argh. hurt hurt hurt.

it was cool tho, watchin the needle.
heeheehee... my first ever blood test. wh00p!